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Sorry!

Fri Sep 7, 2007, 6:36 PM
I want to apologize to everyone on dA, because I didn't post a lot lately and I almost don't even have time to read my messages.

I just started Cegep, and it's not that easy to deal with everything I have to do. I don't have much time left for dA, but I promise that as soon as I'll have more time, I will come on dA, post new texts and read everything you have to offer me.

And I want to apologize to Yssan, who tagged me, but I don't have the time to answer the quizz... I will, I promise.

Anyway, that was to say that I will be more active on dA and that I didn't let you guys down.

Then, I wanted to say that I love my girl more than ever and that... I think my personnal life is going the good way. I want to share my life with her, and to share her life, for the rest of it, and further more.

It's wonderful, I finally found that soul that was made for me :)

I love you, my lovely little hippie... I love you so much! :)

  • Mood: Sentimental
  • Listening to: Us & Them - Pink Floyd

The boys are back in town...

Sat Jul 28, 2007, 6:51 AM
Hey everyone!

I'm back from a 6 days trip in New York with my girl and her parents. It was great! I really enjoyed the city and everything I had to see there. The people are very kind, I was surprised! I thought they would be more stressed out and impolite...

Anyway, I loved that trip but what I loved the most was the shining She had in her eyes...

Now that I'm back, I will work on some project and I'll probably post a few texts here. But I wont do this today, because I am enjoying a good day at home and (I hope) with her next to me :)

So see ya' folks, thanks for looking!

Oh, and by the way, leave some comments! I have over 500 pageviews and almost no comments, leave at least a comment on what you've read of my texts if you did not read the whole of it, please!

Thank you! :D

  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: The boys are back in town - Thin Lizzy

Please allow me to introduce myself...

Wed Jul 4, 2007, 6:44 AM
Please allow me to introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
I've been around for a long, long years
Stole many a man's soul and faith

And I was 'round when Jesus Christ
Had his moment of doubt and pain
Made damn sure that Pilate
Washed his hands and sealed his fate

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

I stuck around St. Petersburg
When I saw it was a time for a change
Killed the czar and his ministers
Anastasia screamed in vain

I rode a tank
Held a general's rank
When the blitzkrieg raged
And the bodies stank

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name, oh yeah
Ah, what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, oh yeah
(woo woo, woo woo)

I watched with glee
While your kings and queens
Fought for ten decades
For the gods they made
(woo woo, woo woo)

I shouted out,
"Who killed the Kennedys?"
When after all
It was you and me
(who who, who who)

Let me please introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
And I laid traps for troubadours
Who get killed before they reached Bombay
(woo woo, who who)

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, oh yeah
(who who)
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, oh yeah, get down, baby
(who who, who who)

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, oh yeah
But what's confusing you
Is just the nature of my game
(woo woo, who who)

Just as every cop is a criminal
And all the sinners saints
As heads is tails
Just call me Lucifer
'Cause I'm in need of some restraint
(who who, who who)

So if you meet me
Have some courtesy
Have some sympathy, and some taste
(woo woo)
Use all your well-learned politesse
Or I'll lay your soul to waste, um yeah
(woo woo, woo woo)

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, um yeah
(who who)
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, um mean it, get down
(woo woo, woo woo)

Woo, who
Oh yeah, get on down
Oh yeah
Oh yeah!
(woo woo)

Tell me baby, what's my name
Tell me honey, can ya guess my name
Tell me baby, what's my name
I tell you one time, you're to blame

Oh, who
woo, woo
Woo, who
Woo, woo
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Oh, yeah

What's my name
Tell me, baby, what's my name
Tell me, sweetie, what's my name

Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Oh, yeah
Woo woo
Woo woo


Love that song...
  • Mood: Sociable
  • Listening to: Sympathy for the devil - Rolling Stones

And nothing could have changed my world...

Fri Jun 29, 2007, 6:43 PM
Can somebody tell me what I did? Damn, my whole world is burning to ashes, there's almost nothing left...

I just can't be good with her, I mean... I'm so rude, so aggressive... Why does She stay with a guy like me? She could get another guy, much more better than me. And I've gotta work early tomorrow, but I just can't sleep until this message is done. I've got to work and that means I'll see her only in the afternoon. She won't sleep here, I know it. Her mother...

Damn.

And my father... What did I do to him? Why does he hate me so much? Not even a month ago we were making jokes, laughing together, having great discussions, I felt like I had the best father all over the world. But then, tonight, when I told him I didn't want to work all Saturday mornings... He was so angry! I thought he'd just spit at me. If his eyes could throw daggers, I'd be dead.

His voice... This voice I'm afraid of since I'm five years old... When he gets mad at me, I just feel like I don't worth a shit. My father was everything I had during a long time... All I needed was his approbation, all I've ever asked for was him to be proud of me... Even just once...

Though, the eyes he laid on me were so dark, so evil that I'm sure I'll never get that wish to be realised... It's over, now... Why? Because of Her? What does She have to do with my father and I?

Sometimes, I can't understand something in the world. Then, I go see my father and he helps me find my way out of this dark tunnel... What if it's my father that turned off the light?

I just wish they'll both love me, even if I'm not perfect. I know I'm not, I'll never be, as I've never been... But I try, I try so hard to get better... I just need some more time, some help...

I feel like three years ago... I thought it was over when she helped me to get out of that... Though, it comes again...

I don't care about anything, I don't care about music, writing, I don't care about working or earning money anymore... I don't care about New York, or even about Cegep... I don't care about anything, or anyone... Only Her, I still love her and want her by my side...

What the fuck?

That would probably be the time where I should ask God for some help. I'm screwed, 'cos I don't give a shit about God anymore neither...

I need to cry, I'm crying right now, but I need to cry to someone... Cry my pain, cry my sorrow, cry everything I've kept inside... It will come out all mixed up, but I don't care... I need to get it out, or fire will get it in...

I'll go to sleep, but know that,

I love you, my love...

I love you too, dad...

Do I still love myself?

  • Mood: Hurt

St-Jean 2007

Mon Jun 25, 2007, 4:24 PM
Pour le bien de cet évènement, je vais faire mon message en français. Je m'excuse aussi de dire ce message le lendemain de la fête, mais tous les Québécois festifs me comprendront facilement ;)

Le 24 juin, c'est la fête nationale du Québec. La Saint-Jean Baptiste. Étant souverainiste, j'adore cette fête, mais ce n'est pas pour cette raison. Il n'y a aucun besoin d'être souverainiste pour fêter la St-Jean. Tout ce qu'il faut, c'est être fier d'être Québécois. Fier de nos ancêtres, fier de ce que nous sommes et avons réussi à garder face aux Anglais. Fier de cette paix que nous maintenons, fiers de notre culture que nous savons conserver, non pas par obligation, mais par amour de notre terre. Fiers de notre langue, de nos valeurs. Fiers de notre peuple fort, qui sait se tenir debout. Notre pacifisme ne nous rend pas un peuple moins puissant, au contraire! Nous sommes fiers de ce que nous étions, nous sommes fiers de ce que nous sommes devenus, et nous sommes fiers de ce que nous pouvons devenir. Oui, je vous le dis mes frères et mes soeurs, nous sommes fiers d'être Québécois!

St-Jean 2007. Méga Projet. Jo, Marrie, Vaness Gilbert, Val et moi. Ainsi qu'un paquet de monde que je connais pas, mais qui sont tous ben cool, soûls et gelés. :P

J'ai eu ben du fun, un vraiment bon trip. C'tait un mix d'émotions de fou. Étrangement, ma réaction était la bonne, rien de ce que j'avais pensé ne s'est produit. Aucune émotion négative, simplement une joie énorme.

Tout au long de la journée, j'ai pu réaliser de quoi ma vie manquait: d'aventure. Si un jour, le band peut marcher et qu'on fasse des shows, ça va en rajouter, mais je vais travailler sur ce point là. C'est ça ce qui me manquait depuis tout ce temps: de l'aventure. Je savais pas c'était quoi cette touche de nostalgie. C'était un besoin qui n'était pas comblé.

Je vais aussi travailler sur mon style, c'est une autre chose que j'ai réalisé: à quel point je l'avais mis de côté pendant longtemps. Il est temps que je change le style classique de "cheveux longs, jeans et T-Shirt de groupe". J'ai déjà les Converse, je vais m'effilocher une paire de jeans sous peu, m'acheter un chapeau à la Slash, un bracelet de cuir, possiblement un bandeau et ce dont j'ai envie depuis longtemps et qui est bien plus utile en plein été qu'un chandail noir: des chemises.

Je vais m'acheter une chaîne pour remettre ma croix dans mon cou. Et d'ici quelques années, je vais me faire faire ce tatou dont je rêve tant sur le bras.

Ensuite, la troisième chose que j'ai pu vivre à cette St-Jean: l'amour. Pas l'amour simple qui me semblait si extraordinaire, mais bien un nouvel amour. Un amour différent, plus fort, plus complexe. Quelque chose que je n'avais jamais encore vécu. Un feu qui s'est mis à brûler dans mon coeur, comme si on venait d'allumer tous les brasiers de l'enfer. J'en avais chaud, je ne pouvais pas me retenir de l'embrasser. Elle était si belle, si douce, si désirable. Je suis devenu fou, fou pour Elle, à ce moment là, Elle aurait pu me demander n'importe quoi, et j'aurais accepté. Mon bel amour. Je l'aime, Elle, et ce n'est pas près de changer. Je l'aime si fort. Je veux la garder près de moi pour toujours. C'est avec Elle que je veux vivre tous mes partys, mon premier joint, ma vie de musicien et aussi ma vie de parent. C'est maintenant bien clair dans mon esprit: c'est avec Elle que je vais finir mes jours.

Bref, maintenant, j'ai besoin d'un autre party. Pas quelque chose avec ma propre gang, mais j'aimerais quelque chose avec des gens que je ne connais pas aussi. Comme à la St-Jean. Connaître du nouveau monde. Essayer des nouvelles choses. Je veux vivre à plein, je veux ne passer à côter d'aucune occasion de faire la fête.

Ah, la St-Jean... Que d'amour il y a...

Vive le Québec libre!

  • Mood: Relief
  • Listening to: La Manifestation - Les Cowboys Fringuants

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